She lowered her eyes again, thinking. What was she going to do? She didn't have a single mushroom. She really did need a shower, and more importantly, some food. When was the last time she had eaten?
She sighed. There is no such thing as a free lunch, or so the saying goes, so she'd have to earn one. Nobody would even look at her, much less hire her, until she was somewhat presentable. She might have to go back into the forest and see what she could find; she was good at finding edible plants, and maybe she could find a few delectable ones. Gourmet chefs would pay ridiculous prices for some rarer varieties. Then she could find a cheap room, shower, and then find work to do.
This was assuming that she could find those plants. To do so, she'd have to go back outside the dome and scour the forest.
She smacked her forehead with the palm of her hand. Why hadn't she thought this out? She shouldn't have accepted the ride back. Now she was right in the center of the city, homeless, jobless, and pathetic, only to leave and return again. She continued hitting herself for a minute and was just about to leave when a voice caught her attention.
“You're early.”
She didn't bother to look at Jason. “I guess bad news does travel fast. Where have you been?”
“Amazing how fast it became my fault.”
She didn't answer him. Jason thought she looked strained. Pale and wan, as though she were withering. She also seemed stressed out, for once. Nathan said that she had run off; Jason wondered why. He also wondered why she'd been hitting herself, but chose not to ask. “Are you okay?” he inquired instead.
“Why has everyone been asking me that?” she muttered, half to herself.
“Because you look like you're about to fall over.” he replied. “Vivian, y--”
“It's Tiana, now.” she corrected.
Jason sighed. “Tiana, then. What have you been doing to yourself?”
She blinked and looked at him in surprise. “I-- what?”
Jason stared at her. “Do you just pretend to be oblivious to everything that happens to be inconvenient to you?”
The bewildered look on her face was replaced by her traditional scowl. “Maybe, maybe not. It's none of your business anyway, y--”
“Yeah, yeah,” Jason interrupted. “Insert witty comment about my mother, et cetera. Your mental walls are up, and I'm not going to even bother trying to break through. You never talk to anyone about anything that might possibly mean you're weak or imply that you have feelings. I can't read your mind, so just tell me this one thing: do you need a shower, or are you going to continue to act like a stubborn child?”
She glared at him and did not answer. Her stomach was more practical and gurgled loudly. Jason shook his head. “We should get something to eat first. After all, I helped lose your purse, so I owe you anyway.”
Her mouth tightened, as though she were resisting an impulse. “There wasn't much in it. I'm pretty sure I only had a couple of blue mushrooms left. It's hardly anything, so you don't owe me.”
Why was she fighting him? “There was an mp3 player, first aid, a flute, and whatever else I didn't notice. If you want to make a big deal over it, how much were they worth? And was the purse of sentimental value? I'm surprised you still haven't jumped down my throat because of it. Were you just going to ignore the fact that I had a hand in the loss of your purse? It's not like you to just let something go like that without guilt-tripping the culprit, aka, me.”
He waited for her snappy comeback, but it wasn't coming. Her face was totally blank. She closed her eyes and opened them slowly. “I hate owing people stuff. And I can't annoy you about it if you pay me back. The score would be even, and I'd have to find something else to bother you about.”
Was that a joke? Jason waited for her to continue, but for a moment she really did look like she was going to faint.
He decided that she wouldn't appreciate sympathy or charity of any kind, so he rolled his eyes. “Come on, don't stand there like a dummy. I've got a room at a hotel. It's nothing fancy, but there's a foldout couch as well as a bedroom, and a shower. You have to admit you need a shower, if nothing else.”
He turned and walked away at an easygoing pace, that of one who was just on a walk to admire the architecture of the buildings, and didn't look back once. After a moment, her reluctant footsteps began to echo his. It sounded like she nearly tripped once and faltered several times, but she kept up easily. It was obvious to Jason that she was pushing herself to appear strong and confidant, but it was equally obvious that anyone else would've asked to stop and rest by now.
He had the impulse to reach out and steady her every time she missed a step, but she'd just smack his hand away, glare, say something like “I don't need your help,” and walk away obstinately. Even though he felt guilty about letting her walk on her own, he pretended to ignore her.
After a fifteen-minute walk, they finally approached a small hotel. Jason checked in and they took the elevator to the second floor. Tiana didn't protest that it would've been faster to take the stairs, proving how tired she really was.
Jason opened the door for her, and she made no comment. She glanced around. The main room was small, with only a kitchenette, couch, nightstand, lamp and tv, but it was clean and relatively nice. A small bedroom and even smaller bathroom were behind the two doors at the side. “Not bad.” she said tonelessly.
Was that a compliment? Jason thought. “Yeah. It's pretty good for only 15 red mushrooms a night.” he agreed. “I'll be right back. I forgot something.”
Jason left the room, closing the door behind him. Tiana let out a sigh of relief, removed her filthy shoes, and sat on the linoleum floor in the kitchenette; thus, keeping the carpet and sofa clean.
Keeping up the pretense of indifference was exhausting. When he'd offered to help her out, she'd almost cried, she'd wanted it so badly. So close, but her pride had almost withheld it from her. Even after she'd accepted his “Take it or leave it” offer, she'd barely made it to the hotel. Any other day she'd have taken the stairs, but her energy level was suffering from both the escape through the forest, the adrenaline from the sticky situation involving the twins, and a lack of food.
She found that she really couldn't remember the last time she'd eaten. She didn't usually eat much anyway, so the last meal she'd eaten was probably light to begin with.
Her stomach growled at her again, demanding to know why it wasn't being satisfied. She tried to glare at it, but she really was hungry, and she couldn't blame her body for demanding to know why she'd been mistreating it. She sighed, laid her arms on her knees, and rested her head on top of them.
Jason came back with a couple of towels and a bathrobe. He'd gotten them upon request at the desk, but he hadn't wanted to drag Tiana any farther than he had to. She had looked as though she were at the end of her rope.
He opened the door and saw Tiana, curled up on the cold linoleum floor. She looked like a lost little girl. Jason shook his head. All his protecting instincts were being triggered, but it seemed like she didn't want to be protected or comforted.
Then it occurred to him; she didn't want pity. That was why she wouldn't accept charity, and she said herself that she hated being in the debt of another. That's why she acts ungrateful all the time, he realized. Why didn't I see it before?
He dropped the towels and robe in the bathroom and tapped her shoulder. “I'm back.”
She tried to retreat further until he tapped her again. “Tiana?”
At that her head came up. “Oh. It's you again.”
“Yep. I was only gone for about five minutes. Anyway, I'm heading out again. There's a robe and some towels in the bathroom. You can toss your clothes in a trash bag outside the door and a maid will take it to be laundered. Okay?”
She nodded. Jason offered a hand to help her up. She looked at it for a moment, as if debating whether or not it was a poisonous snake...
then she accepted it.
